Kill me.

Now, be a good girl.
Go to the kitchen.
Take out the knife that u fancy most.
Wrap it clean with a wet cloth.

Ok, now, go to the living room.
Switch on your com.
Play your favourite song.
On the air-con.

Relax, close you eyes.
Hold yer knife firm,
and rise it high.
Count to 3 in yer heart.

1.
2.
3.

STAB it right into yer chest.
Don't scream.
It's late at night.
Just let the blood flow,
or knock yerself out.

Once the night is over.
It'll be over.
No more dreamwaver.
No more Flesh.
No more projects.
No more PMS.
No more school.

Just kill me now.
Tml im working.
BAD news.
Isit it?

got to go...

*dead gal go to bed...=/
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Zombie

Passed another day of misery.
Been living in the lifes of Zombies nowadays.
Fun is the last word on my mind.
Top of the list states ASSIGNMENT,
fellows by PROJECTS.

My friend just told me today,
" I thought poly lifes suppose to be very relax one"?
I told him, on the surface it is.
At home, it's a different story.
Cause almost all the work requires computer!

This is so not me.
Fun and Laughter suppose to top my list!
When is my pms coming?
I have no idea.
Come quick please.
I have a feeling it's coming.

I don't' want to live in the days of darkness.
Whereby waking up with all the projects burden in my mind.
Tiring.
Annoying.
Disgusting.
Plus my lard character, it's hard.
I seriously need time to relax myself.

Shopping might be a cure for me.
With the absent of sufficient money,
makes no different.
Where is my pay?
End of the month,
Orchard here I come!

Morning jogging might be a way to relax.
IT's 3.40am now,
Will I be able to wake up?
O gosh, my parent's radio is playing chinese new year song.
Time files and it's gonna be new year soon!
Time to have fun and MONEY!

Getting slightly motivated now.
In a few more months time,
I'm a year 2 student!!!
Woo!
I must pass my exams with flying colours sia!
GPA 3+!


I wanna go morning jogging!!!
MUST WAKE UP!
byez

*hugs and kisses...=)

Blog up!

Haven't been blogging for quite some time.
Been busy for work, celebrations and lastly
the stupid e-learning and projects thingy.
Christmas for this year wasn't as fun as last year.
Quite a let down.
Partly because everyone is busy?

Went tuition with von by Cheryl..
Thanks man! You rockz! =)
After that, went shopping with von.
Brought a belt and von brought alot of things.
Hohohoho..Impulse!!!!!
Now I got 2 skirts and 1 shirt onhold in fareast.
I'm so dead! Where is my pay???

Get pisses off quite easily these days.
PMS?
No!
Not yet...
WHY?
I dunno...
Ok, let's not think about it.
Maybe I'm getting abit tired ba.
Suffocating.

School'd starting soon...
Time files..haiz..
When can I really have the time to rest?
No one knows.
Life is rough.

F*** the e-learning...

Woke up at 12pm today, It's like finally lo...
I can't even remember when was the last time I get to sleep for 6 hours and above...
After refreshing myself...
I happily went online, intending to work on some of the E learning shit!
Guess What?
It's DAMN BLOODY LAC LA!!!!!

Everyone was like complaining to me about the lacness....STUPID F***KING BULLSHIT!
IT's suppose to be a holiday or should I say a break after the whole load of test and projects right???
But why is it F***king becoming like twice the work we normally did on the school days???
WHY? WHY?? WHY???
The e-learning bull shit is hell enough...
On top of that...4 PROJECTS to be completed straight after school reopen lo!!!
What is this?
Is this a holiday or what?

I think it's more like a torturing section la....
So all in all....e-learning plus 4 projects
EQUAL NO HOLIDAY!!!
And now...I CAN'T EVEN GET ACCESS TO THE BLACKBOARD TO DO MY E-LEARNING!!!
So what's this? system down....and this is F**king wasting my time!!!! So I have to push what I've plan to do tonight to tml....provided that the system is back...!

Ok... shall not continue to damp my mood with such non important and bull shit thingy....
Went out with dreamers today and it was quite fun!
Rach did not join us for some reason....so sad...
Went to eat dinner at burger king(WM)..
Then after that...as usual..find that WM is a very boring place...
So we decided to go causeway... went to shop around...=)
After a long walk, we went to have some tea...

Left CW at about 9 plsu 10...
Then we went to WM MCD to tong...
After a short chat..
WE went home..
Haha..but all in all it's enjoyable to go out with them la!=)

K...shall do take a look at the blackboard again..

*hugs and kisses/...=)

Tempo freedom...

OK, I'm finally done with my IPRA la~
Staring at don't how many pages of words lo!
Finally done man, i'm super tired, super craving for a good night sleep and super want to go shopping! Come on, it's still a holiday afterall...

Though it's meant to be a break for all of us,
but honestly, can we really take a break?

ANS: NO!!!!!

Sob, we're tied up with endless projects and moreover, the stupid E-learning thingy which require us to go do some work online!!!
It's like wasting our time la!
Now it seems like this so called "holiday" is worst than normal school days...
Ok, must hide all this unhappy things somewhere in my mind first...
afterall, I've just finish my IPRA project and it's the start of my holiday...
HOHOHO! =)
I think I deserve a good break; at least for today la~

Ok, got back my ecos result...
It wasn't very well done, it's a let down la....
I would have aspected at least 10 marks higher la...
Nvm, I think is partly because of the stupid essay Q la...
Must go practise my MCQs also...
OK, hope i'll get a better grades from now on..
Hohoho...jia you ya YIN ZAI!=)
zai zai all the way~

Had drama CA just now,
Ok, It's damn bloody fast la~
Im in the one gp...
SUay lo...thn kana one "mute" girl in my gp...
OMG LA!!! If she din show her personality as a "38" women out, how on earth am I going to expand my character??? OMG LA!!!
Ok, I got 63 marks, not sactisfying at all!!!!
NVM, next sem is all about production, MUST DO WELL!!!!=)

Times really flies as just one more term and I'm a year 2 student!
When trying to recall back,
It's a mixture of feelings ba...haha
but all in all I still enjoy the life in poly ba...
Just a blink of eyes and we're coming towards the end of year one...
If we blink some more how???
Cannot blink so much liao la...
LAter old until our menstruation stop how??? =X

Ok..talking nonsense liao...got to go have one good night sweety sleep man!!!=)
Nitez
*hugs and kisses...<3

1 hOur break...

Ok, it's another boring 1 hour break...
Not eating now cause later got 3 hours break!!!
It's like What The Hell la!!!
Got nowhere to go so we decide to use the com in the library.....
Thank god, there's not alot of people in the lab now...
Hohoho...

Having News Writing test later...
it's 20 percents...
Hope I can score well la~ =)
DVPA was fun just now...
Though not as Zai as that time~
BUT!!! It's better to make mistake now
than to make mistake at the actual thingy right...=)
But remember, always have a clear mind and stay clam!!!
Yin zai.. Zai zai all the way!~ Hohoho...

There's a sudden make up DVPA lesson on sat...
hoho..cause we won't be able to access into the media lab on thur
as they need to set up and get ready for the test...
Hohoho...excided!!!
Pingster(Ms kwa) is gonna treat us breakfast on sat!!!!
Shark fin teo bowls pls~
ok..think I will be log out any minute now...
gtg...

*hugs and kisses...

Just one more week...

Hohoho...just one more week to freedom!
Though it's just a two week vacation and plus all the projects, but it's better than nothing la~
My right is getting from bad to worst..
of course la! Everyday sleep so late, i'm gonna sleep early tonight man!
By 11.30, I must be on my bed!!! =)

Ok, DVPA today was fun!!!
I manage to catch up as I missed my lesson on tue!
=)
Seating on the hot seat was fun!
Being a director is stressful of course, but it's really really fun!
I like to be a floor manager...damn cool la!
camara man was ok la~ Just need to shift the camara around...
Image mixer was fun too~
I din get to be the sound person, but thin it's quite easy la~
All in all, it's FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!
If I can, I would like to work in the media....hohoho....

Just need to have confident in yerself and tell yerself that YOU ARE ZAI!
Then ok liao....director won't be that difficult..hohoho...=)
Hope I can score well in DVPA ba~
Economics results doesn't seems to be good ~
Let's pray!
ok...gotta stop here....bb..

*hugs and kisses~

Drowned...

I'm falling...
Falling into the deep sea...
I'm trying real hard to climb up...
But it just keep pulling me down..
Down....
Down the way it goes...

I'm so tired....
Without even having the strength to struggle...
I'm drowning...
For once..
I feel so free....

I asked myself...
Should I even struggle back to get a life so meaningless?
Meaningless?
What do I mean by that..
There's so much beautiful and love ones around me....
But i'm really tired...
School...
Work...
Fun?
No....
I need a life....

Seriously...
I need a life free from projects...
I need a life free from exams...
I need a life free from anger...
I need a life free from unhappiness...
I need a life with real freedom; at least to my mind....

I need a life fill with laughter...
I need a life fill with happiness...
I need a life fill with fun...
I need a life fill with love...
I need a life fill with freedom...
Without the restrict of work..study and money...

I need a break...
But from this point of time..
I can't...
I'm tied up with projects..test...and some other problems la~
Can i even have a break???
Everyday is a brand new day..
Ok, i totally agree with that..
BUT!!! Everyday I need to worry about projects...
Will I be able to cope with my module...
Will I have enough money to shop...
Will I have time to relax...play...or have fun...
Ok...Im spouting nonsense here...

Maybe i'm just feeling a little bit down because of my PMS???
HOHOHO...ok...
I had great great fun yesterday....
With all my mates...
Almost the whole class went to Souel Garden at Taka to eat after Ecos test...
Cheryl and Grace joined us!
They're great man!
Haha..oya..we went there to celebrate all the dec babies( Gene, nisa, joanie, von, alwyn and pewen) 6 in TOTAL!!!
Wow....buy their cards and presents until siao LOL!
Haha..but I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves!!!

BUT EVERYONE IS VERY TIRED!!!!
shall post some pics then!!!=)

The cards are niceeeeeeeeeee!

(WP)Joanie..hope u are fine now..haha

(WP) Rach aka plant acting cute~

(Break)Von studying Econs

(Break)Fernie doing her project...

HAve a safe journey!!!

(Break)Bob..acting cute..Thanks for yer cake!!!

After phototaking...but IT's NOT ENOUGH!!

Dong what are u doing?

Sistas!!!=)

Nisaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

makeover von....so white!!!

WOooooooo~

haha..me and rach..

R they the guys in my class? sad to say YESSSSS! haha

me and gene

von and gene

Suffy and gene

Gene and joanie(pretty!)

suffy and me!! smilez

joanie...syffy...me..=)

[AT Souel Garden]

The cake!! nice! Thank bob

6 candles for 6 person

Alwyn..what are u trying to do???

Nisa where are u looking???

This is how joanie die in battle royale???

DEC Babies!!!!=)

Singing....happy bday to u~

I wish...i wish~

BooooooOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

Happy Birthday guys!=)

Ok...finally...after a long long uploading time...ARGH! blogger..damn slow! Hha...will upload till here first...more to more~

*hugs and kisses...

So nice!!!

heehee..gtg....Im damn happy now..hohoho...

Kill me.

Now, be a good girl.
Go to the kitchen.
Take out the knife that u fancy most.
Wrap it clean with a wet cloth.

Ok, now, go to the living room.
Switch on your com.
Play your favourite song.
On the air-con.

Relax, close you eyes.
Hold yer knife firm,
and rise it high.
Count to 3 in yer heart.

1.
2.
3.

STAB it right into yer chest.
Don't scream.
It's late at night.
Just let the blood flow,
or knock yerself out.

Once the night is over.
It'll be over.
No more dreamwaver.
No more Flesh.
No more projects.
No more PMS.
No more school.

Just kill me now.
Tml im working.
BAD news.
Isit it?

got to go...

*dead gal go to bed...=/
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Zombie

Passed another day of misery.
Been living in the lifes of Zombies nowadays.
Fun is the last word on my mind.
Top of the list states ASSIGNMENT,
fellows by PROJECTS.

My friend just told me today,
" I thought poly lifes suppose to be very relax one"?
I told him, on the surface it is.
At home, it's a different story.
Cause almost all the work requires computer!

This is so not me.
Fun and Laughter suppose to top my list!
When is my pms coming?
I have no idea.
Come quick please.
I have a feeling it's coming.

I don't' want to live in the days of darkness.
Whereby waking up with all the projects burden in my mind.
Tiring.
Annoying.
Disgusting.
Plus my lard character, it's hard.
I seriously need time to relax myself.

Shopping might be a cure for me.
With the absent of sufficient money,
makes no different.
Where is my pay?
End of the month,
Orchard here I come!

Morning jogging might be a way to relax.
IT's 3.40am now,
Will I be able to wake up?
O gosh, my parent's radio is playing chinese new year song.
Time files and it's gonna be new year soon!
Time to have fun and MONEY!

Getting slightly motivated now.
In a few more months time,
I'm a year 2 student!!!
Woo!
I must pass my exams with flying colours sia!
GPA 3+!


I wanna go morning jogging!!!
MUST WAKE UP!
byez

*hugs and kisses...=)

Blog up!

Haven't been blogging for quite some time.
Been busy for work, celebrations and lastly
the stupid e-learning and projects thingy.
Christmas for this year wasn't as fun as last year.
Quite a let down.
Partly because everyone is busy?

Went tuition with von by Cheryl..
Thanks man! You rockz! =)
After that, went shopping with von.
Brought a belt and von brought alot of things.
Hohohoho..Impulse!!!!!
Now I got 2 skirts and 1 shirt onhold in fareast.
I'm so dead! Where is my pay???

Get pisses off quite easily these days.
PMS?
No!
Not yet...
WHY?
I dunno...
Ok, let's not think about it.
Maybe I'm getting abit tired ba.
Suffocating.

School'd starting soon...
Time files..haiz..
When can I really have the time to rest?
No one knows.
Life is rough.

F*** the e-learning...

Woke up at 12pm today, It's like finally lo...
I can't even remember when was the last time I get to sleep for 6 hours and above...
After refreshing myself...
I happily went online, intending to work on some of the E learning shit!
Guess What?
It's DAMN BLOODY LAC LA!!!!!

Everyone was like complaining to me about the lacness....STUPID F***KING BULLSHIT!
IT's suppose to be a holiday or should I say a break after the whole load of test and projects right???
But why is it F***king becoming like twice the work we normally did on the school days???
WHY? WHY?? WHY???
The e-learning bull shit is hell enough...
On top of that...4 PROJECTS to be completed straight after school reopen lo!!!
What is this?
Is this a holiday or what?

I think it's more like a torturing section la....
So all in all....e-learning plus 4 projects
EQUAL NO HOLIDAY!!!
And now...I CAN'T EVEN GET ACCESS TO THE BLACKBOARD TO DO MY E-LEARNING!!!
So what's this? system down....and this is F**king wasting my time!!!! So I have to push what I've plan to do tonight to tml....provided that the system is back...!

Ok... shall not continue to damp my mood with such non important and bull shit thingy....
Went out with dreamers today and it was quite fun!
Rach did not join us for some reason....so sad...
Went to eat dinner at burger king(WM)..
Then after that...as usual..find that WM is a very boring place...
So we decided to go causeway... went to shop around...=)
After a long walk, we went to have some tea...

Left CW at about 9 plsu 10...
Then we went to WM MCD to tong...
After a short chat..
WE went home..
Haha..but all in all it's enjoyable to go out with them la!=)

K...shall do take a look at the blackboard again..

*hugs and kisses/...=)

Tempo freedom...

OK, I'm finally done with my IPRA la~
Staring at don't how many pages of words lo!
Finally done man, i'm super tired, super craving for a good night sleep and super want to go shopping! Come on, it's still a holiday afterall...

Though it's meant to be a break for all of us,
but honestly, can we really take a break?

ANS: NO!!!!!

Sob, we're tied up with endless projects and moreover, the stupid E-learning thingy which require us to go do some work online!!!
It's like wasting our time la!
Now it seems like this so called "holiday" is worst than normal school days...
Ok, must hide all this unhappy things somewhere in my mind first...
afterall, I've just finish my IPRA project and it's the start of my holiday...
HOHOHO! =)
I think I deserve a good break; at least for today la~

Ok, got back my ecos result...
It wasn't very well done, it's a let down la....
I would have aspected at least 10 marks higher la...
Nvm, I think is partly because of the stupid essay Q la...
Must go practise my MCQs also...
OK, hope i'll get a better grades from now on..
Hohoho...jia you ya YIN ZAI!=)
zai zai all the way~

Had drama CA just now,
Ok, It's damn bloody fast la~
Im in the one gp...
SUay lo...thn kana one "mute" girl in my gp...
OMG LA!!! If she din show her personality as a "38" women out, how on earth am I going to expand my character??? OMG LA!!!
Ok, I got 63 marks, not sactisfying at all!!!!
NVM, next sem is all about production, MUST DO WELL!!!!=)

Times really flies as just one more term and I'm a year 2 student!
When trying to recall back,
It's a mixture of feelings ba...haha
but all in all I still enjoy the life in poly ba...
Just a blink of eyes and we're coming towards the end of year one...
If we blink some more how???
Cannot blink so much liao la...
LAter old until our menstruation stop how??? =X

Ok..talking nonsense liao...got to go have one good night sweety sleep man!!!=)
Nitez
*hugs and kisses...<3

1 hOur break...

Ok, it's another boring 1 hour break...
Not eating now cause later got 3 hours break!!!
It's like What The Hell la!!!
Got nowhere to go so we decide to use the com in the library.....
Thank god, there's not alot of people in the lab now...
Hohoho...

Having News Writing test later...
it's 20 percents...
Hope I can score well la~ =)
DVPA was fun just now...
Though not as Zai as that time~
BUT!!! It's better to make mistake now
than to make mistake at the actual thingy right...=)
But remember, always have a clear mind and stay clam!!!
Yin zai.. Zai zai all the way!~ Hohoho...

There's a sudden make up DVPA lesson on sat...
hoho..cause we won't be able to access into the media lab on thur
as they need to set up and get ready for the test...
Hohoho...excided!!!
Pingster(Ms kwa) is gonna treat us breakfast on sat!!!!
Shark fin teo bowls pls~
ok..think I will be log out any minute now...
gtg...

*hugs and kisses...

Just one more week...

Hohoho...just one more week to freedom!
Though it's just a two week vacation and plus all the projects, but it's better than nothing la~
My right is getting from bad to worst..
of course la! Everyday sleep so late, i'm gonna sleep early tonight man!
By 11.30, I must be on my bed!!! =)

Ok, DVPA today was fun!!!
I manage to catch up as I missed my lesson on tue!
=)
Seating on the hot seat was fun!
Being a director is stressful of course, but it's really really fun!
I like to be a floor manager...damn cool la!
camara man was ok la~ Just need to shift the camara around...
Image mixer was fun too~
I din get to be the sound person, but thin it's quite easy la~
All in all, it's FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!
If I can, I would like to work in the media....hohoho....

Just need to have confident in yerself and tell yerself that YOU ARE ZAI!
Then ok liao....director won't be that difficult..hohoho...=)
Hope I can score well in DVPA ba~
Economics results doesn't seems to be good ~
Let's pray!
ok...gotta stop here....bb..

*hugs and kisses~

Drowned...

I'm falling...
Falling into the deep sea...
I'm trying real hard to climb up...
But it just keep pulling me down..
Down....
Down the way it goes...

I'm so tired....
Without even having the strength to struggle...
I'm drowning...
For once..
I feel so free....

I asked myself...
Should I even struggle back to get a life so meaningless?
Meaningless?
What do I mean by that..
There's so much beautiful and love ones around me....
But i'm really tired...
School...
Work...
Fun?
No....
I need a life....

Seriously...
I need a life free from projects...
I need a life free from exams...
I need a life free from anger...
I need a life free from unhappiness...
I need a life with real freedom; at least to my mind....

I need a life fill with laughter...
I need a life fill with happiness...
I need a life fill with fun...
I need a life fill with love...
I need a life fill with freedom...
Without the restrict of work..study and money...

I need a break...
But from this point of time..
I can't...
I'm tied up with projects..test...and some other problems la~
Can i even have a break???
Everyday is a brand new day..
Ok, i totally agree with that..
BUT!!! Everyday I need to worry about projects...
Will I be able to cope with my module...
Will I have enough money to shop...
Will I have time to relax...play...or have fun...
Ok...Im spouting nonsense here...

Maybe i'm just feeling a little bit down because of my PMS???
HOHOHO...ok...
I had great great fun yesterday....
With all my mates...
Almost the whole class went to Souel Garden at Taka to eat after Ecos test...
Cheryl and Grace joined us!
They're great man!
Haha..oya..we went there to celebrate all the dec babies( Gene, nisa, joanie, von, alwyn and pewen) 6 in TOTAL!!!
Wow....buy their cards and presents until siao LOL!
Haha..but I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves!!!

BUT EVERYONE IS VERY TIRED!!!!
shall post some pics then!!!=)

The cards are niceeeeeeeeeee!

(WP)Joanie..hope u are fine now..haha

(WP) Rach aka plant acting cute~

(Break)Von studying Econs

(Break)Fernie doing her project...

HAve a safe journey!!!

(Break)Bob..acting cute..Thanks for yer cake!!!

After phototaking...but IT's NOT ENOUGH!!

Dong what are u doing?

Sistas!!!=)

Nisaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

makeover von....so white!!!

WOooooooo~

haha..me and rach..

R they the guys in my class? sad to say YESSSSS! haha

me and gene

von and gene

Suffy and gene

Gene and joanie(pretty!)

suffy and me!! smilez

joanie...syffy...me..=)

[AT Souel Garden]

The cake!! nice! Thank bob

6 candles for 6 person

Alwyn..what are u trying to do???

Nisa where are u looking???

This is how joanie die in battle royale???

DEC Babies!!!!=)

Singing....happy bday to u~

I wish...i wish~

BooooooOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

Happy Birthday guys!=)

Ok...finally...after a long long uploading time...ARGH! blogger..damn slow! Hha...will upload till here first...more to more~

*hugs and kisses...

So nice!!!

heehee..gtg....Im damn happy now..hohoho...